“Et tu brute?” was written in blood
on the wall dripping crimson drops onto the ash. The
hairbrush was all that was left, and now
it was covered in vomit.
Scott
fumbled with the pack of cigarettes
in his shirt pocket. He
flicked the Bic
lighter, fully engulfing
the butane and quickly inhaled in on the tar paper.
The scene
was nearly too much for
him to handle. Scott
pulled back his hair
in a pony tail and looked back down at the ground… Out came
the notebook as he
scribbled down the contents of the room as quickly as possible:
There
was a feeling, an overwhelming sense that something big was going to
happen
soon. Something important was going to
happen, and perhaps the world was about to go to war. Casey
didn’t know for what, things seemed
peaceful, albeit dull, throughout the land.
The lack of rainfall seemed to be the only
true malady throughout the
land as of late.
Scott
bit his lower lip, “There’s one more
thing…” He kicked away the newspaper and
vomited again. “I
thought there wasn’t
anything left…” It looked like relish, and it was
covering the charred remains
of a human
hand.
“Jesus
Christ.” A voice from behind Scott belted out.
“I thought I’d seen it all, it’s just so…”
Little did Casey
know that the fragile link
that held this world together was about to
break. Everything was going
to change…
The
man behind Scott sidestepped the remains to address him,
“Fucking hell, the
newspapers will crucify
us if we don’t announce that we know who the
responsible party is, preferably already after the suspect is in our
custody.”
A woman
spoke up, “We could just
keep it hush hush?”
Scott
looked dejected before he
spoke, “Keep a SHC
case quiet? That’s
likely!”
The other
man pulled off his hat and
dusted it off, “We did it before.”
“WHAT?!?” Scott and the woman asked
in unison.
“Don’t act so surprised. Fifteen years ago…”
“Aristotle
is not diadactic,”
The Osper stated forcefully to the crowd of adolescent youth
sitting in front of him. Casey tried his
best to sneak into the seminar without being noticed by the rest of the
crowd. He utterly failed. The Osper continued his
discussion, “It is not
preachy,
it is not about making one a better person. That is more in
the realm of Plato
and his Republic especially in the second
and
third
books. It would behoove you to
re-acquaint yourselves with these sections, where he discusses when one
can gain
personal knowledge through poetry.”
“You
see, this here is the journal that we found.
It’s illegible, most of it.
Rantings, ravings, you know this guy wrote about his
recurring
nightmares? It’s
pretty wild.” Hailey
closed the book with one hand.
Detective
Hailey diligently thought
before he spoke, “He had nightmares
about unicorns.”
The crew would have laughed
had the
dead man not been charred from what appeared to be the inside
out. He was clutching something.
Casey already regretted
coming
here. He wished he was still outside in
the rain with the branch. He was lost
in
the discussion of philosophy
and poetry.
The great high arts, to which anyone must apply to not
only understand,
but fully control.
He wanted to go into
the sciences.
Special
detective Sharon Dunbar knew she shouldn’t but she pried the
corpse’s hand open
nevertheless. Glass
shards fell to the
polished wooden floor with a tinking sound.
Before the sound, she realized her folly.
“Just what in the blazing fuck
were
you thinking,
“I
simply… something got the better
of me,” she took a deep breath,
“I guess.”
She tugged on her ears as if her non-extant earrings were itchy.
The Osper faded back into
Casey’s
head, “What are these layers?
Legend has
no real complication or depth of plot, according to scholars.
It’s all foreground, and no background.”
“Seven
dollars. That’s
all he had on him. It’s
a damn shame you would have thought he
would have had more. Lt. Nale slipped
the four other bills in the wallet into his own back pocket. “This never
happened, okay?” Nale
lit a cigarette and threw
it on the
newspaper stack on the kitchen table.
Hailey did a double take at the
situation, “Sir,
isn’t this…”
The Osper was legitimately
stunned by the question, “You raise an interesting
point. I shall have to think myself about that in
private and reflect on a proper
response.
In the meantime, this conversation is over for now. Please go
now in peace to understand not only
your surroundings but those around you.”
“Sure
as hell it’s arson. This is going to be
easier than explaining ourselves to the Feds.
It’ll just look like a regular fire.
I’ll come back tomorrow to investigate with some
of you. We’ll
file a report that someone anonymously
tipped us that they spotted a fire in this house.
I’ll remove the accelerant and we’ll
just say
it was a suicide.”
The room was already getting smoky and the team stepped out of the front door, Detective Sharon Dunbar being told to close it at the behest of Lt. Nale.
The rest of the crowd slowly
poured out of the room. Osper
was
somehow the last one out. The
Osper
asked him to stop. “Why
did you
come to
this talk today?”
“I know not, Master Osper. It was raining, and I was just… compelled to hear you speak.”
“Do
you want to have kids someday, Nelly?”
“Brad, what do you mean?
Of course I do! Not
now, not for years… Maybe a decade or so,
but yes, eventually. I’d
like to have
three
or four, or maybe five.
“That’s a lot.
I don’t know if I could handle that many in
one house at one time. I’m
not even sure
if I could… I mean I could potentially be a terrible
father.”
The
Osper tugged at his own
beard, and eyed Casey, “You don’t know why you came
here. And yet you
missed the introduction and the
main portion of the discussion. Why bother?”
“I
apologize for
interrupting. I do not have a concise
answer for you. I am just worried, I
hear things, and thought that maybe you would be able to provide some
answers. I promise not to attend
unannounced again, Master Osper. A
thousand apologies.”
“Brad!
What are you talking about?”
“Well I dunno. I don’t have much to base
it
around. My family, you know, the father. Erm. My
father wasn’t exactly Atticus
Finch. Or even Homer
Simpson for that matter.”
The windowpanes shook from
the
wind outside. Casey flinched and nearly
jumped. The Osper
was eying him the
entire time, trying to understand why this boy had come to his
discussion. Could this have been what he was waiting
for? It was time to begin the tests.
“What
I mean is that although I’m sure my dad loved me, he
didn’t express it very
well. Actually hardly at all in fact.”
“So you think that you won’t be a
good father because your dad didn’t express his feelings towards
you?”
“Your
name is Casey, right?” He
shook his head in acknowledgement.
“Alright then, answer a few questions for
me. It’s
the duality of having free-will
and knowing that either through destiny, fate, or a lack of faith, that
they
already know the path you would follow and planned their actions
accordingly. Complexity
and clarification are the two worlds at odds here.
They each have their own ideas their own
ideal, in an extreme way. Do
we live in
a secular society?”
“I
think so.”
“Well
it’s not just that, it’s that his interest level in
me was erratic, although
generally staying somewhere between low and non-existent.
When he did have something to say, it was
usually a putdown, and not what I’d consider
encouragement.”
“So you think that you’ll act like
that, like him, to your kids?”
“Why
then, are there so many
biblical allegories still being made then?
Do you feel well represented through sacred texts,
or do you feel so
removed that… You don’t even have a full beard
yet!”
“A
beard? But I’m only…”
“It’s
really all I’ve known, and it’s just a fear of
mine, I guess… I’m afraid that
things like that might be in my blood,
and I can’t escape that fate.”
“You can’t honestly believe that,
Brad. You might have grown up in those
circumstances, but look at you now, you are a really smart and caring
guy. If anything, now you know what NOT to do in
those situations, right?”
“You
don’t have to explain your
physical shortcomings and immaturity to me.
History does not wait for anyone, it is the story in which
we live. It is up
to you, the disposition of your soul
is up for stake here.”
Casey
gulped, “What is a soul?”
“It is something
that you have,
the most powerful
thing there is.”
“I
guess so Nelly. I’m tired though, and I don’t feel
like walking back.”
“Say no more. You’re the best teddy
bear I’ve
ever had!”
“Do
you mean knowledge?” Casey
paused, noting his error, he took a deep
breath, and then cleared his throat,
“A means of communication?”
“It’s
unification of the masses
via… I must depart. Meet me here
tomorrow at the same time. Make
haste, and do
not be late again.” And
with that, the Osper was gone.
Adeline
pushed back her dirty blonde
hair and sighed, “But why Mom?
Why can’t
I have a birthday? I’m going to be ten! That’s a
big event! Double digits! It’s
only a couple days away!”
Her mother looked up from
the small
mountain of dishes that were trying to surface from the soapy depths of
the
Dawn-infested water. She brushed off the
sweat from her forehead with her arm in an awkward motion, and then
turned
around to face her nine-year-old daughter.
“Honey… you know that money has been tight
since
your father went away.”
Casey tried to piece
together how
the most recent events unfolded. He
didn’t really intend to attend the talk, it was seemingly a
fluke that he was
there at all, Master Osper seemed like he knew that he would arrive, in
some
way. His head thought
from thinking too
much, and he went to bed early for the first time in years.
“Dude,
you need to chill, I want to be cool with you and Nelly. Why do you put
me in
the middle of this? I didn’t ask for this.
I want to be friends with both of you. Doing drugs, smoking, doing all
this shit, what are you trying to prove?”
Brad continued to stare at the
ground… “I’m not doing fucking anything.
I mean, I’m not trying to do anything.
God, fuck you.” He kicked the dirt,
moving a small cloud around. “I don’t do
drugs, anyhow. Smoking
is not a drug.”
When
he awoke the next day, he
prepared himself to be there on time.
After
a discussion on tropes
and figures, The Osper motioned him to come to the
backroom of the auditorium. “Welcome
back Casey, I hope I didn’t frighten you yesterday with our
initial
meeting. Let me
quell your fears for a
bit. Yes, I knew
you would attend the
discussion, in fact, you were earlier than I imagined, I figured that
you would
enter the building as everyone else was exiting.”
“But
how…”
Scott couldn’t
believe what he had
just witnessed. A fifteen-year-old
coverup, for a mysterious death? How
could he be so naïve?
“That’s
a discussion for another
day. Yesterday we left off speaking of
your adolescence. Even a pawn can be
important in a chess game, remember.
What is universal to one is not necessarily
‘universal’, as they say, to
everyone. Personal
bias will plague and
cloud people’s minds because the revolutionary, evolutionary
truth is a tabla
rasa.
“Sweetie,
I have a surprise for you!”
Am
I going to have a party?” The words seemed to rush together
into a single
syllable from the precocious nine-year-old’s mouth. Her daughter’s
doe-like eyes grew even
brighter. “Mom?”
“Yes Addy.
There’s no surprising you, I
guess.” She could see a smile forming on
her own mouth. It had been too long since she had an honest
reason to do so.
“A what?”
He saw a couple across from
him, only
fifty feet away, talking to girls sticking their head out of the
apartment
building’s windows. He could see them
moving their mouths, but he couldn’t ascertain what they were
saying. It got cold. Real cold. Real fast. Brad found
it hard to breathe. He could finally hear
the couple now. They were screaming, screaming for the girl to come
down. No, there were two girls in the window, but
now there was only one.
“A clean slate, a
mind not yet
filled with any ideas, much less conflicted
ones.”
Did
the other girl fall out of the window? Brad frantically looked around,
he
couldn’t see her, he guessed that he was fine.
Well not fine, he had a shortness of breath in addition to the other
symptoms. He started to walk towards the
ATM, he was only a few hundred feet away. He got closer, he finally
made it
inside the glass enclosure. There were
two other people there, there were four machines though. They
just stared at him. Brad didn’t know why they were
staring
at
him. He was still cold, he could feel
the goosebumps rise all over his body.
Sweat poured down his face. Now he understood why they were staring.
“Is that why I am
here? You think I have a table
rasa – an empty
brain?”
Brad
inserted his card into the ATM machine and punched in his
PIN. He tried to remember what he wanted to do. He
forgot if he was trying to put in or take out money. He
decided just to print out a
statement. The ATM machine displayed an
error, and Brad was too busy with other things to be all that
flustered. He
merely hit cancel and the machine spit out his card. Now
walking was becoming unbearable, as he
made his way down the stairs to the ground level next to the credit
union. He needed a drink. No, he needed water, no he
needed rest. No he needed to sit down,
and he found a bench that was unoccupied. He sat there, just staring at
the
ground in silence for another twenty minutes.
“Far from
it. I think you underestimate your
own…” Master Osper trailed off on his
own accord.
“Hooray!”
Adeline seemed to bounce off
of every surface in the cramped studio
apartment all at once.
“Honey,
I even made little invitations
for your friends. I figure that you can invite six of your friends. There are directions to
our apartment here on
the back. She
handed her daughter the
handmade cards that she made late the night before out of sky blue
construction
paper. It was
written with a Sharpie
marker.
The
girl’s naïve look switched to that
of puzzlement, “But Mom, I thought you said there
wasn’t enough space here.”
Casey was growing impatient
with
the riddles,
“My what?”
“Addy, they are
only meeting here, the
party is going to be somewhere else. Somewhere
special.” Special because she hadn’t
figured out where
that was going to be just yet. She couldn’t
afford to float for the Kid’s
The
Osper shifted topics and
begin talking of vats and the existential
condition. Implications
were brought forth from science
and proto-science.
The Osper
reigned in the conversation some minutes later, “There
isn’t necessarily a
redemption
here for anyone. This isn’t
some epic story whereby two primal groups compete for what they assume
is the
best ideal.”
Bargain.
Bargain price for some bargain music. Cheap thrills through a
hi-fi.
Sifting through the CDs, Brad often wondered
why people went to flea markets. It was
almost a spiritual experience to go there on weekends.
They were
such easily justified means, he
went back to his search. What exactly
was he looking for? Redemption.
Chances are, if one found that here, you could haggle the
price
down to around half of what the seller was originally asking
for. Cracked.
The cases were not exactly in pristine condition.
Casey
needed to
drink something, his mouth was starting to dry, his eyes starting to
water. He felt
uncomfortable and
couldn’t explain to himself why.
“Ancients, with
their own time, geographic and cultural differences, are all pulled
together
with a common thread. With the authority
they speak with, you know they have their own political
agenda. Theoretical theory, their globalization is a
rationalization that is bursting forth from these passages.
Grounding from very small snippets, our basis
of knowledge… It is not only possible that our way of
thinking is wrong, it is
probably
statistically flawed nearly to it’s core.
You, Casey, must ‘choose your own path’, as
some would say.”
Brad was told not to judge
a book by its
cover. But if the case itself was
marred, what would be said for the media inside of it? The
smell of tobacco mixed with incense
permeated the entire building. A sense
of cheapness, of lurid, dank, stuffy basements stocked to the ceiling
with
boxes full of junk came to mind. They
came here to spend their money, to buy and sell that junk, their
"wares." Or was it more
than
that? Brad’s eyes roved over this particular
vendor's table, with his items for sale.
A beat up acoustic guitar and two tattered black leather
jackets. These jackets looked as if they had seen
better days at least a decade before Brad’s birth.
Casey
looked up
at Master Osper with reddened eyes, “But how will I decide
the appropriate
course of action?”
“My guidance, my
help is more than likely to be marred by my own plan, my course of
action, my
intent is of course, not without its own bias.
In some ways, it is best to be a novice in this inquiry. The
range of information and the breadth of
the interpretations
possible. There is a
virtue to be able to be self-conscious
of the work. Many
years were spent preparing for this.”
Brad
removed himself from that area. What did
use did Brad really have for CDs anymore? He wondered if he would find
the next
big thing in those old shoeboxes full of music?
The chances of that happening were roughly the same as someone
purchasing a Bentley sedan here for under a grand.
Whispers.
The hawks
came here early and left last.
Why you ask? They came here to
scope out the building, all the vendors and their precious "wares,"
see what they are peddling so that they have an idea of what they
want. Then, they wait around for the remainder of
the day, whispering to each other and smoking unfiltered
cigarettes. When it is nearly time for the place to
close, they slowly close in on their play, flying to their tables.
“Preparing for
what, you make it sound like there is a war coming?”
“In
some ways it
is. There was once talk of a land where
alchemy was distilled and given up on.
Everyone felt that alchemy was a sham, a false ideology whereby foolish
men wanted to turn base metals into profitable gold. To my
knowledge, that’s impossible. Gold being
“manufactured” as it is by these
alchemists… Do you have any concept of supply and demand,
Casey? Gold is valuable because it is rare, not
because of it’s composition
or shininess.
Otherwise, pyrite would go for
the same price. This gigantic
influx of gold, created form
lead or some other common base metal… The value of gold
would
shrink, sink, and
then finally die. The only people that
would gain financially would be the first group of alchemists that
trade this
“false gold” for goods ore services, or even
better, the
purchase of land. After that initial development, the secret
would get out, and no secret can be kept forever. And then,
the
economy will shrink, sink, and
die, aside from those initial alchemists who now own land and lease it
out to
others like feudal lords.”
The
vendors. The hawks ask them what price
they are willing to sell their "wares" for.
They buyer quotes them a price, and the hawk
tells him a much lower value. The hawk
knows this game very well, he knows how much cash it will take to
purchase the
items he desires before he even opens his mouth. Soon enough,
the deal is done, the
"wares" being traded for green paper.
The place is nearly empty now,
save for the vendors themselves, who most
of which are in the process of packing up.
“I
see.”
Brad
hustled over to the vendor who was selling sunglasses, dirt-cheap.
Supposedly
these are just regular run-of-the-mill sunglasses, but upon further
inspection,
and the use of common logic, a person would be led elsewhere.
Name-brand logos and phrases are embroidered
on the cases and etched into the arms of the frames. Are they
mere knock-offs, or are they
hot? Another web of mystery and
suspicion has been spun by the great Flea Market. A curiosity
that leads us to itself on
weekends.
“There is no
common
man, then. You must understand
that. There is no hero. There is no
‘everyman’ that can be the
unification of humankind’s simplification routine.
You must now go out and explain this, not to
others, for they won’t
understand, but to find the answer for yourself, the
means to a common goal.”
Scott threw up as
soon as he woke up that night in a cold sweat.
He couldn’t get the charred body out of his mind.
There was barely anything left…
